Part of me is sure I have been in love several times in my life; the other part of me is not certain I have ever been in love at all. This is just another new thing in my life I am not sure about at all. I went along thinking I knew then it was love itself that kicked me in the face; it was love itself that took a friend, my best friend away. I feel like I need to back up a little; but how long do I need to back up. I met my best friend years ago, and we started "dating" we really never called it that. I knew we would not last, at least I told myself that. After being apart, then being together for short periods, all of this time we were supposed to be over; but it never felt that way. Then after they moved "home" which means in with me I find out they have been talking to someone else. That was okay with me, since we were not dating and we both stated that we wanted to be friends first and foremost. Then my friend decided to move back in with their parents. Now we do not speak at all, I do not know what happened. I think I understand finding new love and life being all about that person. It is that fact that I base this idea of Love taking them away from me on. I guess to help "get over" or "forget about" me they need to totally shut me out. What happened to staying friends; was this just talk from the very beginning? Life and love confuses me and does not seem to be getting any clearer at all.
Reason two love takes from you. I just finished chatting for the first time in weeks my my best friend and ex-lover. I was told that we could no longer communicate because it is what they needed. Once again love has kicked me in the face; love pulled them away from me; them loving their new person has caused us to not communicate at all.
I am not sure I want love in my life anymore. I know you get some great short-term benefits; but what love gives it more than takes away. You can stand up to love; fight it with all your might; scream and yell; but when love leaves you it takes so much that you can not stop.
To love; I have loved you, I have hated you, I have feared you, you have made me unbelievably happy, you have torn out my heart, you have broken my soul, you have taken and taken and taken from me. Love I am not sure I can see you anymore.
Hopefully this post made some sense, I needed to get it out of me. I might change it; I might add to it, right now I am so lost, the only thing I know is I want this out of me.
Reason two love takes from you. I just finished chatting for the first time in weeks my my best friend and ex-lover. I was told that we could no longer communicate because it is what they needed. Once again love has kicked me in the face; love pulled them away from me; them loving their new person has caused us to not communicate at all.
I am not sure I want love in my life anymore. I know you get some great short-term benefits; but what love gives it more than takes away. You can stand up to love; fight it with all your might; scream and yell; but when love leaves you it takes so much that you can not stop.
To love; I have loved you, I have hated you, I have feared you, you have made me unbelievably happy, you have torn out my heart, you have broken my soul, you have taken and taken and taken from me. Love I am not sure I can see you anymore.
Hopefully this post made some sense, I needed to get it out of me. I might change it; I might add to it, right now I am so lost, the only thing I know is I want this out of me.
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